Sam's Story {his name}

After we got the call and Wes got home, we began talking about what we were going to name this little baby boy.

We've had a name picked out for a long time.
Even though we loved the name, something always felt a little off to me.

Then, I thought of the name Samuel...and this is why...

I've always struggled with praying.
I hate saying that, but it's true.
I have no problem talking to God throughout the day, asking Him for wisdom or thanking Him for something he's blessed me with.
It's the day after day, faithful praying for specific people and situations that I struggle with.
I get so overwhelmed thinking about all of the needs {including mine} that sometimes I just don't pray at all...

While we were in the midst of our last adoption match falling through, God repeatedly was speaking truth to me about prayer through sermons I was listening to, my scripture calendar by my kitchen sink, books and people.

John 14:14 kept coming into my mind...

"You may ask me for anything in my name, and I will do it."

So, I did.  

I asked Him that we would get a baby before October.

I asked Him everyday.

But something was so different about this prayer.  

I wasn't asking out of fear of an unknown future. 

I wasn't asking out of what I wanted. {Even though I really, really wanted a baby soon.}

I was asking Him out of trust.

Trusting Him that His will was best.

Only a few people knew about my prayer and I remember telling them that I had complete peace about the outcome whether my prayer was answered or not.

Here's where I get to give God all of the glory.

He answered my prayer.  

He may have given us our sweet, precious Sam without my prayers, but it made it that much sweeter...

I was able to share this story with Sam's birth mom and I can't wait to share it with Sam someday.

"She named him Samuel, saying, 

"Because I asked the Lord for Him. "

1 Samuel 1:20b

Stay tuned for part 3...meeting Sam's birth mom.