For about 5 months, we have been thinking about adding another little one to our family of three. And lets face it, Max could use a playmate to help him learn that the world doesn't revolve around him.
Here was Wes' idea. "Let's see if we can get pregnant over the summer."
My immediate and slightly sarcastic remark. "Ummm, it's been six years since we started "trying". I'm thinking that's not going to happen, but OK."
So...I prayed because my heart gets weary when I think too hard about pregnancy and the possibilities.
Part of me thinks I'll be OK if I never experience pregnancy, but I'm not sure if that's because there is still a slight chance that it could happen. How will I feel when pregnancy is out of the picture?
The other part of me worries about having a biological child and I cringe at the thought of Max wondering if I love my biological children more than him.
That's why I prayed.
"By His will" we would receive our next child whether it be by pregnancy or adoption. I love the peace that comes from sharing your heart and desires with God. I knew that pregnancy or adoption would bring so much excitement to our lives.
My prayer was answered.
I'm not pregnant.
Our adoption application has been sent in. We're in the process of filling out a ton of paperwork, getting background checks, collecting pictures and are excited to start the adoption journey again.
Here was Wes' idea. "Let's see if we can get pregnant over the summer."
My immediate and slightly sarcastic remark. "Ummm, it's been six years since we started "trying". I'm thinking that's not going to happen, but OK."
So...I prayed because my heart gets weary when I think too hard about pregnancy and the possibilities.
Part of me thinks I'll be OK if I never experience pregnancy, but I'm not sure if that's because there is still a slight chance that it could happen. How will I feel when pregnancy is out of the picture?
The other part of me worries about having a biological child and I cringe at the thought of Max wondering if I love my biological children more than him.
That's why I prayed.
"By His will" we would receive our next child whether it be by pregnancy or adoption. I love the peace that comes from sharing your heart and desires with God. I knew that pregnancy or adoption would bring so much excitement to our lives.
My prayer was answered.
I'm not pregnant.
Our adoption application has been sent in. We're in the process of filling out a ton of paperwork, getting background checks, collecting pictures and are excited to start the adoption journey again.
So happy and excited for you and your journey! I will keep you in my prayers.
ReplyDeleteI love your perspective! Thanks for sharing!
ReplyDeleteYour perspective is so encouraging! I love the verse from Revelation. My husband and I just got matched with a birth family and I have really enjoyed reading your blog! Thank you for being so vulnerable.
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